I am a 21 year old male with multiple symptoms that doctors don't know what it is or prescribe antidepressants.
It all started or started progressing about age 17-18. I'll list the symptoms I have and they have all progressively gotten worse.
-Low Energy/Fatigue (every morning I feel like I'm waking from a coma and all day I'm exhausted)
-Loss of Motivation
-My mind feels foggy and out of it. Kind of like I'm stuck in my head.
-I am unable to express my personality most times.
-this one's hard to explain. It's like I know who I am and my personality but its blocked or something.
-Little to no desire to socialize or hang out with people/ I could care less about having friends to call and hang out with
-Low self esteem/ low confidence
-Difficulty enjoying life and things I once found enjoyable.
-Feel hopeless like life has no point sometimes.
A doctor and a psychiatrist have said I have depression but depression meds make me zombified or have terrible side effects. I take adderall
for self-diagnosed inattentive add(I know self diagnosing is bad but i got tired of doctors not listening) and it helped quite a bit at first and now just helps me to not feel completely exhausted during the day. I get a zombie effect from antidepressants and got a similar effect when starting adderall. I have tried lexapro, wellbutrin, and just started cymbalta.
My dad has schizophrenia and my mom has MS and they both take antidepressants with no trouble. Psych meds so far seem to make my mind even more messed up feeling. This is preventing me from living my life and I can't do anything or get anything done no matter how hard I try, I just want to feel normal!
So, basically my question is:
Do you have any suggestions on what might be wrong with me?